Sorry to hear that. If I was your husband I would forget about using my sperm to have children. Waste of time and energy, and there is too big risk of having kids with health problems, if at all. I would let my wife get a sperm donor from healthy, smart, good looking male, and love babies as my own. Nothing is sure of course, but most likely or not kids would be healthy and smart, and would bring you a lot of joy.
I probably will get you angry with this post, but believe me my intentions are to help the best I can.
Good luck axelleb.